On December 3rd, Chris Cuomo was terminated from his position as a CNN news host after reportedly helping his brother, Andrew Cuomo, fight multiple sexual harassment accusations. According to Business Insider, released transcripts indicated that the now 52-year-old used his media sources to find information about one of his brother’s accusers. Over a year later, the former news anchor revealed how he felt about his firing while speaking as a guest on an episode of Anthony Scaramucci’s podcast, “Open Book.”

“I was going to kill everybody and myself,” Cuomo confessed. The scorned former CNN employee, who is of Italian decent, blames his initial reaction on his heritage. “Things can consume you,” he added. “Italians are so passionate.”

Despite feeling that he was betrayed by the major network after eight years of being employed by them, Cuomo has grown to accept that his days as a primetime news anchor have permanently ended. “I’ll never be that again,” he said. “That was taken from me, I believe wrongly. I’ll litigate that. I’m not going to bitch about it in the press.”

In October, Cuomo began hosting “Cuomo” on Newsweek, which gained popularity after comments about the United States’ House midterm election results and his heated interview with controversial celebrity Ye for his antisemitic remarks.

“I’m trying to remember what I’ve been through every day, and not forgetting and falling back into what works,” he explained. “What will rate more and what will get me higher on the media list, and what will get more people talking about me.”